I’m here again…vulnerably

please catch me.

14th of December, 2025. It’s currently 2:04am and I’m rolling on my bed, trying to get the nature to come but it’s not granting my request, and in the midst of all these, my mind has been drawing to you. I’ve been thinking about you and I can’t get my mind off you.

I miss you.

Today’s the 25th of December (Merry Christmas my darlings 🎄✨💘) 11 days later, and somehow, you’re still here in my thoughts. The feelings didn’t disappear, they just waited. Quietly. Patiently.

Some things don’t need constant words to remain true. This is one of them.

You know, I feel so angry at myself, because, it seems I can’t do anything perfectly or consistently….. I started content creation, did a 10-day consistency challenge… and then I stopped almost immediately afterward. Even with you, my gist partners, I couldn’t keep up. I keep going off, then coming back, apologizing, promising I won’t go off again and then going off again.

It’s frustrating, and I hate that I keep doing this but maybe, maybe that’s part of being human….. trying, failing, trying again.

I know I don’t want to keep making my letters seem like a sad one but I somehow find myself feeling vulnerable with you. Maybe because I have a strong feeling you’d catch me… please do.

It’s the 27th of December, 7:42am, and I can’t seem to find a “perfect” closure or topic for this love letter….or even what this love letter is all about, but maybe things aren’t meant to be perfect, maybe you’re just meant to write rawly, how you genuinely feel, without filtering your words, and that’s what makes you a writer.

I’m going to stop here now my love, please be good and stay safe 💘. I’m going to see you in my next letter, I can’t promise when but definitely soon. Until then, my heart belongs to you and I love you dearly 🫶🌹💘.

see you next time baby 💘.